"And tell me, what's truly meant to be?"

26th Mar 05; Saturday-
Seriously, I'm just lying to myself when I say I come online once a week only.
Yea so I do update once a week in my blog, but I use the damn com whenever my bro/sis are not using it when it's turned on.
It's just not working, my "gonna-study-like-mad-come-online-once-a-week" plan. All I've achieved so far? Nothing, except cheating myself.
If I sound grumpy and moody, that's partly due to the damn consistent pain in my stomach. Yes, I've got cramps again. Ugh.
Anyway. Went out with the Fubus yesterday. Thank God I wasn't late late late, otherwise I had to pay for dinner, which we didn't eat either, but oh well.
Had initially planned to go play pool, but we decided not to. Went to eat at the Cinecafe. Food wasn't that bad, but the portions are pretty filling. Went to the Cine arcade, and we played that table hockey or whatever you call it. Headed to Heeren and did window shopping as usual. Took photos with Yvee's cam! Can't wait for her to upload them. Walked over to Paragon after that and the only shop we went into was the Crumpler shop. I would love to get one of those crumpler bags because the colours are so gorgeous la, but they are so bloody ex I don't see the point in saving up cash like mad and then just blow it all on a bag.
Went over to Far East, where we did window shopping again. Finally stopped to rest, and Shar and I bought the XXL Chicken from the Shilin Taiwan Street Snacks. They are so not kidding when they say XXL. Ended up eating half of the chicken only, and brought the rest home. We took a bus back to Cine to go tcc. Soon ate a cheesecake, while the rest of us goofed around with the cam and chatted. Yunhao ought to be skinned alive for making so much noise. My God.
Yvee left early to go meet Fei Qian, and after that Soon left too. Yunhao, Shar and I walked to Taka to get something to eat and we headed home after that.
It was fun, going out with this bunch of crazy people. Hahaha. Missed going out with them. We should really do this more often you know, Fubus? Haha. =)
But then again, Mid-year and Chinese O's are coming, so we'll just have to wait until Mid-year and Chinese O's are over. And again, I swear I have to start studying hard. Don't wanna end up getting C6 for Chinese when I can actually obtain a B3 or even an A2 if I study HARD HARD HARD.

she sang away at | 2:25 PM

19th Mar 05; Saturday-
My weekly update of my blog! Heh.
Went Orchard this afternoon with Daryl. Met up at 12plus and watched In Good Company. It's not that nice a movie actually. In fact, it's kinda boring. Haha. Oh and it doesn't end with a fairy tale ending, which is unique, but at the same time, it'll make you go "huh?? wth?? just like that??" Hahaha yea.
Ate at Hoi Lau San! It's a dessert shop from Hk and it's DAMN nice I tell you. Too bad there's only one shop in the entire Singapore and it's pretty ex, but it's worth every cent because the fruits they use are really top quality and the desserts are purely made from fruits. Yeaa. No sugar, no added flavouring, blahblah. Haha.
Walked around and went to tcc! Finally. I've been wanting to go sit down in tcc and drink coffee/eat cake for ages, but in the end I didn't order anything because the stuff inside are expensive, but their cakes are pretty heavenly. Heh. Packed one slice home. =) Oh and when we were walking in Cine, I suddenly heard this really familiar voice behind me. Thought it was Jocelyn, but then I turned around and saw CHEN YUNHAO AND SHARMAINE KHOO. LOL. =) Went to Thai Express to eat a proper dinner. Ordered Shrimp Paste Rice again!! It's damn addictive I tell you, but it's kinda salty. Yea. Oh well. Thai Express rocks. =D
Reached home at about 7 because Daryl had to go off early to some party. Yup. Oh and it was BLOODY irritating in the bus. I took 174 home instead of 77, and there was this girl who sat next to me. Her bf was standing next to her seat, and I don't know it's because they probably haven't seen each other in 7 years or they just are MADLY in love, but both of them couldn't keep their hands off each other. I mean, I really can't stand couples who go all way out and fondle with each other in the PUBLIC la. The guy decided to sit next to his gf and the girl moved in and I was squashed all the way in, and then he started hugging her, kissing, touching her neck back arms legs blahblah, and whenever he hugs her his stupid fingers will brush against my arm also because I was sitting really close to the girl because the seats are so bloody cramped. I was damn bloody pissed la. UGH.
Anyway. Met Teresa yesterday and we went to eat Sakae and played arcade! And I finally got my DKU-2 Nokia cable!!! Whooooooo. Thank you so much again, Teresa! =D
And seriously? My phone actually sucks in some aspects. I can't slot in a memory card, and the phone only has a 2MB memory in it. Like wth!?!?!? Ugh. Shall go ask M1 whether there's some way if I could increase the phone memory, but I highly doubt there is a way. =(
Okay next update's probably next Saturday again. It's like already Saturday and school reopens in 2 days' time. Or is it considered 1 day? Ahhh well, the point is, school holidays are already considered over. =( -wails
Oh and I don't know what's with me and wails. Hahaha.

she sang away at | 9:36 PM

13th Mar 05; Sunday-
Okay it's supposedly Monday already since it's 12am, but oh well.
I tell you, BoA's one bloody lucky girl. She's got the looks, the figure, the voice, the songs, the popularity, yada yada. She is an object of envy man.
I want a new handset. Don't get me wrong, I still love my phone a hell lot, but I want a new handset. My flip's growing looser and I've dropped it twice already. Like totally @#%^*&*(&^ la. Ughhhhh.
Gonna go running tomorrow with Zehra in the morning at 8.30AM, if you can believe it. ME, DIANE LIM. Go RUNNING at 8.30AM. Go figure.
I don't usually do 8.30AMS during HOLIDAYS. Haha. Then we're gonna go eat prata after that. LOL. Oh well. One or two pratas won't hurt.
I'm actually damn intent on losing weight, but here I am posting about eating prata tomorrow. I ought to be shot.
La-dee-da.
I'm just blogging for the sake of blogging, since I won't be coming online for the next 5 days or something. Really wanna start being a good girl and shape my own path properly.
Can't afford to slack, daydream, get upset over itty-bitty insignificant things anymore.
It's hard, but sigh.
Wish me luck.

"Whether it's a, b or c, there ain't no point continuing building non-existent castles in the air."

she sang away at | 12:00 AM

10th Mar 05; Thursday-
I'm back from school so early today. So surprising.
Got our ppr back today. Was relieved when I saw I failed only 2 subjects, but then I realised that my L1B4 remained the same. Sigh.
Told myself to start working hard from this week onwards, but here I am blogging when I should be using the time to go do some amaths sums or something.
Come March holidays, I'm definitely gonna start working hard. I'm gonna:
1) Come online only once a week.
2) Start bringing my books home, really sit down and open my textbooks to 3).
3) Start practicing sums on my own, memorise formulas and equations and make useful notes.
4) Go out only once a month.
5) START MEMORISING MEANINGS OF CHINESE WORDS AND HOW TO WRITE THEM!!!
O Level Chinese is like only 2 months away?? It's so freaky how time passes so fast.
It seems like just a moment ago I was fretting whether I would retain or not.
I feel so pressurized when I see people under stress because they're studying like mad and I'm not.
I MUST and I WILL achieve all I've said above.
I CAN DO IT!!
-starts chanting-
Lol that's so corny.
Oh well. I've got 3 more days to "relax" before I embark on my "studyforO's-studyforO's-studyforO's" journey.
Chinese textbooks await my arrival.

she sang away at | 2:12 PM

6th Mar 05; Sunday-
Okay first and foremost, Happy Birthday to Kathe!
Thanks for the movie yesterday. =)
Went out on Friday with Wanxin and Shiying. Bought a skirt! At first I didn't really like it because it's pleated and it somehow reminds me of Cyndi, but I love it now. Heh. And it's GREEN. =)
About 15 of us went out yesterday to celebrate Kathe's birthday, which is actually today but oh well.
Woke up at 2 and realised I was gonna be late for A Series Of Unfortunate Events. Lol. Rushed like mad and managed to miss only 10 minutes of the movie. Yea. It's not that nice a show. If only they had more unfortunate events. Hahaha.
Went to take neoprints with the girls. Bought a gorgeous pair of earrings. Waited for about 10-15 minutes for our table at Sakae. Ate quite little at Sakae for the first time in my life. Haha. After that we went to catch White Noise. It's BLOODY scary can?? And I was stupid enough to decide to train myself to sit alone and endure all the damn sound effects and the scenes. Ugh. OH AND NG CHEE PNG DECIDED TO BE FUNNY AND SCARED THE HELL OUT OF ME TWICE BY SHOUTING "BOO!" AND SHAKING MY CHAIR WHEN THE MOVIE WAS AT THOSE "OMG-SOME-GHOUL-IS-GONNA-APPEAR!!" SCENES. But I forgive him, since he said sorry. LOL.
After White Noise Kathe, Liren, Chee Png and Xiangyang wanted to watch Hitch. I wanted to watch Hitch initially, not White Noise, so I stayed and watched the movie with them. Kathe left halfway. Wasted. It's quite a funny show, especially the part when the fat guy kissed Will Smith. So lol la. Haha. Shared a cab home after that. First time I stayed out until so late, but I'm planning to not go out anymore anyway. Haha.
Oh and sometimes I wonder whether it'll just KILL people not to comment and poke their noses around other peoples' lives. I guess yes, they'll just rot in hell and die if they don't. Really, get a life or something.

she sang away at | 3:45 PM

1st Mar 05; Tuesday-
I've suddenly developed a fetish for "abstract" photos.
LOL.
Got my Nokia 6170!!!!!
Went to the M1 Shop at Westmall yesterday night with my mom to upgrade my phone.
I didn't really had to pay much because M1 gave an offer for the phone and I had my 6610 to trade in too.
So damn happy man.
At 1st I was kinda sad that I can't use mp3 as my ringtones, but then I found out that I can record clips and put them as my ringtones, so I recorded some songs and put them as my ringtones.
Now I'm a contented child. =D
Have been playing with my phone since last night. I just keep flipping it open, even though I really don't want to open my phone so many times because the flipping part will go lose after a period of time. Yea. But I can't help it laa. Oh and normally profile names are in the centre of the screen right? Mine's like just below the clock and there's a dash that follows my profile name after that. Damn coool. Oh and I can use animated stuff as my background. And there are different themes that I can apply, the phone's got a mini display infront and I can see myself when I take a photo, the phone's made of stainless steel and I can just go on and on and on and on about my phone. If I sound hao lian-ish, I'm so sorry but I REALLY CAN'T HELP IT. NOKIA 6170 REALLY ROCKS. Heh.
Stayed back for History vap and Mr Yee was showing us the movie "Windtalkers". It's damn nice la. I wanna go download and watch it again. Sharlene and I were like playing with our cameras and trying to hide from Mr Yee while we took some photos. LOL.
Okay I will stop about my phone. I can sense some frowning. Haha.
Anyway. I shall go record more voice clips now. Wahahaha.

she sang away at | 5:54 PM